March 24, 2004
Burn, Baby, Burn
I've been sitting here trying to express how I've been feeling for the past few days, and never have I been more utterly disgusted with the English language than I am now. You would think with all the thousands of esoteric words that make their way onto standardized exams, one of them could actually encapsulate my current state of mind. But I guess not.
Apathy. Elation. Despair. Confusion. Anger. Resignation. Excitement. Exhaustion. If you were to take all those words and combine their meaning, perhaps you would get a sense. I guess another way to put it would be to say, I'm tired; tired of everything. I'm tired of taking classes that get harder and more confusing every semester, with no end or possible use in sight. I'm tired of mindless work and even more mindless social interactions. I'm tired of the same old food and the same old places. I'm tired of stupid people and their stupid bullshit. I'm tired of asanine tv shows and idiotic movies and the conformist Internet culture. I'm sick of education and revolted by the concept of a career. I'm bored with the present. I'm already sick of the future. I just don't care. I need a change - an escape from the mundane reality of conventional life.
One would think being on vacation would help some, but it doesn't seem to have done anything. In fact, it's probably made things worse. At least when I'm immersed in school, I'm too busy to realize the extent of my apathy. But now here it is, in all of its overwhelming, omnipotent glory. There's so much out there that I need to do and should do and would like to do, that I don't even know where to start. Maybe it's best to just not do anything at all. Guess I must be coming pretty close to being burned out. We'll see what a week of apathy does to repair the damage.
And I quote:
"Awesome. Funny. Stupid. Terrible. These are the things that compromise the entirety of the world. This represents everything that could ever be. That's it. That runs the gamut. Thank you."
Obviously if you were to combine those four, you would be pretty exhausted. Adding in all those other words is just unnecessarily complicating things.
Posted by LizzyGE | March 24, 2004 14:39:23 -0800 | Permalink
BTW, I meant to ask you - where'd that quote come from? Did you or Tina make it up? Sounds more like something you would say.
Posted by Rohit | March 24, 2004 16:03:54 -0800 | Permalink
You called it. Only I could come up with something that awesome! Other gems that I only remember because I wrote them down:
"It’s kind of like an animated “Free Aquarium Screensaver!” ad on the top of your AIM buddylist window: you’re just sort of sitting there watching it and being like 'what the fuck is this world that we live in?'"
and
"You know when you’re drunk and impersonating someone who’s not there with you at that moment? That’s when you know you can marry that person."
Posted by LizzyGE | March 25, 2004 00:25:54 -0800 | Permalink
This is a test comment with lots of different types of html. Got me asshole?
Posted by Test | March 26, 2004 22:44:25 -0800 | Permalink
Aww shit guys...I miss you...even though I'm never around so it would appear that there is actually not much to miss...but screwing meaningless transitions altogether...next year, the PRID kids betta' watch they backs...'cause Lizzle, Kdizzle, and Rohizzle up in dey hizzouse.
Word...or something.
Ciao! Damn Italians...
Posted by Kdizzle | March 28, 2004 10:09:30 -0800 | Permalink